It's been over a month since I've posted. Lazy? I wish. Lot's going on.... let's see what I put down in the blog.....
First off, I was recently diagnosed as a diabetic. I stood there staring at the doctor in an awkward silence. "So, do we cut my legs off now, or what?" I asked. She laughed at me like the idiot I am and said no. I need a change in diet, some exercise, and lose some weight. Okay. I can do that.
The meeting with the doctor was because of the sty I could not get rid of. I posted about it last month. A big, ugly sty on my left eye. I finally broke down and went. The damn thing was killing me, not to mention that I looked like hell. I was given presciptions of antibiotics and.... vicodin. For the pain. Oh my....
I don't hide the fact that I'm a recovering alcoholic. One of my great joys back when I was drinking was to take drugs, like vicodin, and wash them down with beer and vodka.
I took my doctors note, gave it to the drug store, and in no time at all had the bottle in my hand.
I couldn't wait to get home. I had been given permission to get high. The anticipation was almost unbearable. I would stay home, unplug the phone..... oh my God....
There I was planning my buzz. Planning on locking myself away so I could get loaded. Planning on taking 3 or 4 pills when it said to only take 1. I began to shake.
My life now is far from perfect. I have problems like everyone else. But it's a hell of a lot better than it used to be. Was I entertaining the idea of going back to that life? Was the high going to be worth it? Would I really risk all I had built and all I had gone through?
Tears began to run down my face. I took the bottle, opened it, and dumped the pills out my car window. No. I will not go back to that life, but thanks for the invite. I have some Advil at home.
On a lighter note.....
It's official. The radio station where I work is going to become an ESPN affiliate. We will no longer be KGEO 1230AM..... we will be ESPN 1230! Fuckin' A! Good news, bad news, great news.
Good news: I'll be working for an ESPN affiliate.... with all the perks.
Bad news: I'm being phased out of my on air time during the radio auction show.... drag, 'cause I like being on the radio.
Great news: I will be named the producer of the sports talk show that will follow Mike&Mike In The Morning.... locally, of course. There It Is w/ Jake Stevens! We will be the lead in for the Jim Rome Show. AND I'll be doing the morning sports updates live, twice an hour on air. Sweet. In the real world, this is small potatoes.... but for me??? I'm jazzed! By the by.... thereitisjake.com is our web site. I'm going to try and figure out how to put a link up on the blog....
What else....
Still no real woman in my life. I hang out with a lot of women, but I want a GOOD woman. Is that asking too much? Is it too unrealistic to want to be a good man for a good woman? I'm beginning to think that there are no more out there. I guess I'll just keep taking applications....
This one is out of left field..... Christ, do I love me some South Park.
Last nights episode was nothing more than a tribute to the movie "Heavy Metal". Well fucking done Matt and Trey. I've been watching this show since day one and it has never gotten stale. It's too bad more people don't get the joke. It's my favorite show, hands down.
Well, for now, that's all. But that is just the tip of the iceberg. It's always helpful to get all this crap in my head written down. I get so worked up over such trivial stuff.... and when I go back later and reread it, it all seems so.... small. Amazing how self important we become.
Love and happiness to all.
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I was diagnosed as being prediabetic a couple of years ago. I upped my exercising, sort of monitored my diet and avoided going to the doctor as much as possible. I seem to be doing just fine. My theory is that it's going to the doctor that makes you sick. But that's just my theory.
Congrats on dumping the pills. That took guts.
And congrats on becoming and ESPN affiliate and getting the producer gig.
Can't wait to read what happens in another month :)
tim id: Lifes a bitch, ain't it?
Thanks for the kind words and I'll try not to let a month go by again before posting.... I know you live for my posts... ;)
Hey, isn't it about time for your monthly blog post? :)
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