Bad Time To Be In Love

Together. As if in silent prayer.
And whenever I looked out, you were there.
Love flowed from our hearts.
How could we ever,
Stand to be apart?

Don't throw your faith in others away,
Because we have ended this way.
Don't ever think I don't care about you,
What you've always know is true.

It always seems sad, things have to change.
Like our feelings, let's not look for blame.
After all is said and done, I am the sorry one.
Why must we hurt the people we love?
It's like my destiny falls on me from above.

I love you but I can't hang on anymore.
I love you but I can't stay anymore --- Single Gun Theory, Surrender


Yeah, that pretty much says it.

I'm dealing with a broken heart. Met a woman that I believe is my soul mate. I fell in love. I proclaimed my love. She was taken aback and later realized she loves me. The problem? She is married. For ten years. And still loves her husband.
We talked and talked, tried to make things work, wrestled with the situation and our feelings, did not cave in and sleep together, cried and laughed and cried some more.
It became too much for me. I am in the middle of rebuilding my life. All this came at a great and terrible time. "A bad time to be in love"--- Grand Funk Railroad. Me and song lyrics.......
So, the other day, I had to tell her I couldn't talk to her anymore. Or at least for a long while. I will always love her and be her friend. But I have to move away from this.... it's killing me.
She said she understood, said she was proud of me. In my heart of hearts I wanted her to beg me to be with her. But she loves me. She wants what's best for me. I want what's best for her.

If this is the best thing for both of us, why does it hurt so fucking bad?

Well, I'm not sitting around feeling sorry for myself..... okay, so I am, a little. But, in the big picture, things are good. I'm a pretty lucky cat. And the future is always uncertain. Who knows what the next day will bring. I know what I wish it would bring......